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Sharing another song today! :)

Should I be happy or not?

It's a very nice song BUT also a very sad song :(

It's on of the song in F.T Island 4th Mini Album [GROWN-UP]

Title of Song: 지독하게 (Severely)

lyrics (Han/Rom)

아무 표정 없이 아무렇지 않게 그렇게 널 보내주길

amu pyojongobsi amurochi anke geuroke nol bonejugil

매일 연습해봐도 어색하기만 하고

meil yonseuphebwado osekhagiman hago

웃음을 보이며 몰래 우는 법도 매일 연습해 봤지만

useumeul boimyo molle uneun bopdo meil yonseuphe bwatjiman

떨리는 목소리에 금새 들킬 것만 같아

ttollineun moksorie geumse deulkil gotman gata

사랑하는 것 보단 이별 하는 게

saranghaneun got bodan ibyol haneun ge

아마 수천 배 수만 배는 힘든데

ama suchon be suman beneun himdeunde

너 없이 못 사는 바보인데 어쩌라고

no obsi mot saneun baboinde ojjorago

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너를 사랑했나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage noreul saranghenna bwa

숨도 못 쉬고 너만 찾는데 도대체 언제쯤 그만 둘 수 있는지

sumdo mot swigo noman chatneunde dodeche onjejjeum geuman dul su inneunji

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너만 사랑했나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage noman saranghenna bwa

널 보내기가 내겐 죽기보다 더 힘든 지독한 일인 것 같아

nol bonegiga negen jukgiboda do himdeun jidokhanirin got gata

아무리 아파도 아무렇지 않게 그렇게 하루를 보내길

amuri apado amurochi anke geuroke harureul bonegil

그저 익숙해 지길 매일 연습해 봤지만

geujo iksukhe jigil meil yonseuphe bwatjiman

어차피 너를 잊진 못할 것 같아

ochapi noreul itjin mot-hal got gata

고칠 수 없는 병에 아프다 해도

gochil su omneun byonge apeuda hedo

너 없이 못사는 바보인데 어쩌라고

no obsi mossaneun baboinde ojjorago

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너를 사랑했나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage noreul saranghenna bwa

숨도 못 쉬고 너만 찾는데 도대체 언제쯤 그만 둘 수 있는지

sumdo mot swigo noman chatneunde dodeche onjejjeum geuman dul su inneunji

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너만 사랑했나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage noman saranghenna bwa

널 보내기가 내겐 죽기보다 더 힘든 지독한 일인 것 같아

nol bonegiga negen jukgiboda do himdeun jidokhanirin got gata

차라리 이럴 거면 사랑조차 말걸

charari irol gomyon sarangjocha malgol

언제쯤엔 잊을까

onjejjeumenijeulkka

미련하게 너무 미련하게 너만 사랑 했나 봐

miryonage nomu miryonage noman sarang hennabwa

다른 사랑은 꿈도 못 꾸게 하는 너만

dareun sarangeun kkumdo mot kkuge haneun noman

너밖에 모르는 바보인데 어쩌라고

nobakke moreuneun baboinde ojjorago

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너와 이별하나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage nowa ibyol-hana bwa

잘 가란 말이 뭐가 어려워 입술조차 떼지 못하고 머뭇거려

jal garan mari mwoga oryowo ipsuljocha tteji mot-hago momutgoryo

지독하게 너무 지독하게 너를 이별하나 봐

jidokhage nomu jidokhage noreuribyol-hana bwa

흉터보다 더 깊이 가슴에 남아 너를 지울 수 없을 것 같아

hyungtoboda do gipi gaseume nama noreul jiul su obseul got gat

lyrics translation (eng)

Letting you go without any expression, as if it's nothing -

I practiced doing that every day but it's still awkward

I also practiced how to secretly cry while smiling but

I feel like my trembling voice will give it away quickly

Loving is probably hundreds and thousands of times more difficult than breaking up

But I'm a fool that can't live without you - what do you want me to do?

* Severely, I guess I loved you too severely

I don't even breath and I look around for you

I don't know when I'll be able to stop

Severely, I guess I loved you too severely

I think letting you go is more severe than dying

No matter how much it hurts, every day I practiced

Trying to get used to spending a day as if it's nothing

I don't think I can forget you anyway

Even if I'm sick with an incurable disease

I'm a fool that can't live without you - what do you want me to do?

* repeat

If this was how it's going to be, I shouldn't have loved

When will I forget you?

Foolishly, I guess I loved you so foolishly

Because of you, I can't even dream of another love

I'm a fool that only knows you - what do you want me to do?

Severely, I guess we broke up so severely

What's so hard about saying goodbye that I can't even open my lips and am hesitating?

Severely, I guess we broke up so severely

You remain deeper than a scar in my heart so I can't erase you

♥♥♥

The MV itself was sad enough.

And knowing the lyrics made me even sadder :(

Then I tweeted "i think songs can really affect my mood"

Being emo is bad :( I can't do anything when I'm feeling sad.

Saw this tweet earlier: "#Gemini's suffer from moodiness, however they hide this from close friends and family as they want to appear happy all the time."

It's so true. At least for me.

Being emo led me to think about many other stuffs :(

(anyways i'm not always emo-ing okay!)

But I just thought of how some people just have the whole world revolving around them.

(yupps jealous much lols)

But I'm still happy being myself.

(at least I hope I am)

Well at least I feel that I'm really happy most of the time?

Maybe I just need to care less about what others say.

Or what I think others said :(

Thinking too much is bad too.

I really want myself to be happy!

It's also the reason why I engraved my itouch!

Something to keep reminding myself to be happy and love life! :)
Now time to become the happy girl again :)